I love stupid girls.

my nieces and nephew rock haha.

they are all getting so big!!

just had the weirdest scarriest fucked up dream and i kept waking up and going back to sleep and it still would pick up where it left off and get worse.
We were in africa for some reason to look at animals or some shit and then some how the african army was pissed that americans were there so they started killing people off. And it basically turned into everyone hiding on track tracks trying to get back to someplace the army wasn't.
The people getting killed was so vivid and real, and they were even raping people and it was so fucked.

God I've never been happier to be awake.

I'll never dream again lol.

When did it all go to shit?

 It's time for me to start taking care of myself.


shannons party was fun.

alcohol is my only weakness.

Happy Birthday Shannon

Hopefully keywest in two weeks.

Nik Mike Peacock Analiy Mikey and Myself partied with these two Friday night until 5:30 in the morning.
This was probably one of the weirdest yet coolest things that has ever happened. The pool bar closed after 2 so no one could get any drink and we had a cooler full of beer because we prepared. That cooler made us have one of the best nights in Orlando.
So many jokes, so many memories.
Jason Mewes is one of the funniest people I've ever had the pleasure of meeting. He was also geniuine and not a bitchass celebrity like Shannon Dauroty whom I wanted to punch in the throat. Linda Blair looked like she has been doing meth for years. Faruiza Balk is the prettiest little thing I have ever seen in my life I wish I could have made love to her. This is one of the best weekends I've ever had in my life.
I can't wait for the next one!

Now for the next plan. Shannons Birthday is next Monday. I am throwing her a birthday party/BBQ at our house and everyone is invited so do not be shy. I just don't need people here that dont know shannon and just are looking for a place to party. That doesn't fly with me.
Especially with all this "amanda is just an alcoholic" nonsense thats been floating around lately out of jealous mouths.
I in fact do drink but that is because I am 22 and I know when to stop. I also do not drink all the time because I have an amazing job and I like showing up for it.
<3 I'll let everyone know of more info later for this weeked

will i wake tommrow from this nightmare?

I hate days like this.

I think I'm coming to realize a lot lately. Like growing up fucking sucks. I miss being 18, driving around getting into trouble not giving a shit about what I have to do the next day. Meeting all kinds of people, going to all kinds of places, the shows at all the places that have closed down and the friends I shared those memories with at that time that are long gone today (if not mentally then physically). I never realized how much it sucks to live on your own pay bills work your ass off and still be out of money all the time. Taking the damn garbage out, making sure the house is clean, caring for all these animals. It just gets old.
My car hasn't worked in over a month now. I use mikes other car to get to and from work but thats it. Other than that I'm usually stuck at home all by myself trying to make ends meet. Don't get me wrong I love my life, but when I spend my entire day at work , then come home to have to work some more its not very much fun. Teamwork is the word here.
In other news I have decided a party is very much in order here. On halloween october 31st 2009- SATURDAY NIGHT  I will be throwing a huge.. fucking ridiculous halloween party. I'm talking to works. You name it we will have it.  Everyone is invited I'd like to see lots of faces to make a memorable night with. This is what I call our "party season"  Halloween party, Thanksgiving day dinner party, My birthday party in December, A Christmas party in December, A New Years party in December, then we wait for St.Patricks day in March as well as my sibblings birthdays.
It's going to be wild.

<3

got a little too drunk but still had a fantastic time!

Dear Nick..

Lets start a band!

Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

a lots been going on this week,.

Madness...

Come out to rackums tonight for some drinks and friends and fun.
No one likes the work week.

you may have left us and no one knows why, but I'm glad to have met you. You were always a fun person to be around.
And always looked out for everyone.I just wish someone could have been there for you when you needed them the most.
I hope heaven is treating you well. We will never forget you. <3

seems like no matter what I do I just keep getting crapped on by everything and everyone lately.

Its my day  off. I'm cleaning, watching the sandlot and questioning what it is I'm going to be doing tonight.
I hope its something fun and exciting.
I need that in my life.

Tuesday-Saturday I work from 9am-4 or 5pm depends on how busy.

Monday-saturday Mike works from 1pm- 10pm , unless its a weekend which means he will be working till about 12.


Now I know we have sundays off, but I still feel like things get in the way.
Things are always getting in the way.

Lately I've spent more time alone than I have in a long time.

I forgot what it feels like.

Its not a very good feeling.

Its not even work that bugs me.
I love my job mike loves his.
Its just made such a strong impact on who we are lately.
I just wish I had someone to talk to really..
I watched the Degrassi movie with my dogs. Its getting late. I should go to bed but then I wont see mike again until 12am tommrow night.
Ugh. Theres gotta be a better way.

this girl has spent so much time with me when I'm stuck at home alone because mikey works late.
I love her for that.

this is how i greet old friends from highschool

this is how I spend my sundays

these dudes rule.

 

if you're bored come to rackums tonight and hang out with the gearhead boys.

I'll be there as well for once.
<3