things are still tense


oh well this made me smile

Last night , A tranny dressed as Rihanna, and a 40 year old man in a wig beat me in a booty shakin contest.
Oh the humiliation. Haha.


So much fun.

I'm going to be home alone tonight. The first time in months.
It's going to feel great. I'm going to dye my hair and be girlie. And hang out with all my animals.
Maybe I'll have some company later. I'm in the mood to cook people dinner!
<3

I haven't been having a very good month.

sprained ankle

getting sick

still sick can't stop coughing

wisdom teeth are coming in.

got a new puppy that needs constant attention.

dog sitting for my brother.



when do I get a break?

I mean I think it finally hit me today.
It feels like 07 was yesterday.
07 was a terrible year.
It also feels like there was enough time to fix all the problems then.
Now no one hangs out anymore, everyone is mostly unhappy with themselves, and it feels like all the happiness was sucked out of everyone.
I'm so angry with the decisions everyone was making back then
I wish I had a time machine.

In the reality of 09 Mike is getting his sweet fucking car back from his brother.
He needs to fix it then all is well. Todays been my cleaning week. The house has never looked better.
I really want to get on exercising again. Its been a while but chasing a puppy around has been plenty exercise lately.

Baby dog has a name. It is Sadie. She is almost 7 weeks old now. Barks like crazy for attention. I think she gave DJ hookworms so he is on his way to the vet later today wish him luck.
I've been having nightmares lately.
A lot of them actually. They are all about mike doing things with other girls, or mike being mean to me.
I don't know why I've been having them but they need to stop they make me wake up sad.
I find myself getting annoyed with a lot of things in life. Things that never used to annoy me bug the hell out of me now.
I can't explain it.
But that's got to stop as well.
Myspace gets more boring everyday
Livejournal is full of the same entrys
Facebook is well.. facebook.

The internet is boring me.
I might delete everything all together.

not many people know this but back in my boy crazy day I would save my IM conversations cause I knew years down the road they would make sense to me.
I read them all tonight.
A few of you were the person I was talking to.
A lot of them made me smile, others made me get the gut feeling all over again.

The feeling in my gut when I wanted to lay down and die.
When it felt like no one in the world cared, and no matter what you said , people wouldn't hear it.

Then there was this.

Conversation one
life status- very unstable
A boy wrote me this.

"I thought for the longest time I was madlly in love with you... but after living with you for so long and hanging out with you every day.. I realized something... I wasnt madlly in love with you... I knew from that moment on I couldnt spend the rest of my life with you... you were to much of a tom boy... but you were an amazing person... I did love you amanda... at one point I did... but when you wrote me that message and I read it... It didnt effect me at all... I had none of those feelings you spoke of..
 it didnt even  faze me .... and then I realixed I did treat you pretty bad but you didnt treat me like gold either... your own best freind said you were a horrible gf... and out of all the girls Ive been with in my life you treated me the worst...
 I realized your an awsome freind but a horrible preson to spend your life with.... "

which eventually turned into this

Conversation two- different person
life status- finally throwing in the towel.

A friend told me this

 [6:01 P.M.]:  so what's your story moment of glory?
[6:01 P.M.]: who is amanda?
 [6:01 P.M.]: and you're not allowed to copy and paste from myspace
OneMomentOfGlory [6:03 P.M.]: a girl who lives in cape coral not by choice because she had it so good in st.louis, she fell for someone who she thought she knew well, but aparently she was just there to be there I guess what they would call a flavor of the week, but still this prick trys to claim things he can't prove because he doesn't even know what he wants. So I wait. And while I'm waiting I screw a lot of things up between friends, and crushes, and drunken nights. While I'm waiting I drink myself to oblivion
OneMomentOfGlory [6:03 P.M.]:  and hope to christ one of these nights will be worth falling asleep for because I could always look forward to fucking waking up.
OneMomentOfGlory [6:04 P.M.]:  but I guess since I'm just another one of those pretty girls out there I shouldn't have to worry and things will get better because thats what I hear from everyone.
OneMomentOfGlory [6:04 P.M.]:  and everyone must be right.
 [6:04 P.M.]:  everyone lied to you


I do not miss you drama of 06-07
And I've found someone to spend the rest of my life with at 22 years old. And I can see that he feels the same way, even when he is dreaming.


I'm finally as happy as I've always wanted to be .

And it feels so good.

little baby lab has hookworms.
poor thing. she got them from her mother while in the womb.
Shes on meds and having a rough day/night but I hope she feels better soon.
Harry is here.
He is a BIG lab not a boxer like i was told.


Meet Harry


hes just a big puppy.He acts just like Marley from Marley and Me. So right now we got a full house, 4 dogs 2 cats 3 ferrets
At least we have the room. Hes a ton of fun though. Mike had to stay up all night with the puppy last night so tonight is my turn.
It's only 11 and I'm dead tired.
ugh!

is such a baby.

and a handful.

I never knew how much work it would be taking care of a puppy so young but shes a sweet heart.

Harry is comming over today!

Harry is and 8 year old boxer I am doggy sitting for a few weeks.
He's my brothers which means.... IANS MOVING BACK! yay!!


I'm excited.

so heres some baby pics.
Her story is a good one though. The mother was found abused and hurt and a girl in naples bought her off of the person who owned it because he simply would not give her away for free which is sickening. She paid 100 to save the mother and the puppies she was pregnant with. The mother was unable to produce milk I do believe due to the lack of care from her terrible owner so the girl had to bottle feed the puppies for weeks. Now I know puppys legally are not allowed to leave to a new family until they have reached 8 weeks, this puppy looks to be only about 4-5 weeks.
She eats like a pig but its hard to get her to drink water so I'm still giving her formula from a bottle and water as well from a bottle.  She is a lab but I'm sure she is going to be a lab mix seeing that one of her sibblings was brindle (brown/black). I'm excited to see her grow up with our other dogs! I just hope the other puppies are so lucky to go to a home where the new owner knows how to handle just a young animal.
At least she was given a chance and a good home!
Check her out!

coolest pup ever, linny the guniea pig stuffy from wonderpets and a WALLE blanky!

shes tiny




There they are! Oh and just for kicks, a funny picture i took of our fatass cat Oliver the other day

Hes the man.
<3

Our new puppy.
black lab. About 4 weeks old. I do believe.
She eats like a piggy and still drinks from a baby bottle.
I love her.
She needs a name.

 

I've been sick all morning. Feeling a little better now.
<3

If you can't take care of them why the fuck do you have them?

Criagslist grosses me out. People trading animals for ipods and games and all kinds of material bullshit. You all should be ashamed of yourself.
This week I've gotten phone calls from people in need of help related to animals.
I hate that people can't spay or neuter their outdoor animals. And even if your pet isn't an outdoor one , but sometimes gets out why the fuck haven't you fixed them? I also hate people that neglect their animals!! It makes me so upset that anyone could do that to a living creature.
I'm trying to adopt a lab puppy now because these past weeks with all these craigslist bullshitters haven't worked out.
GOD